"goodbye"

there was a time in life...just a couple of months ago, really, that i felt like my entire life was long-distance. that frustrated me. i grew weary of people's comings and goings. relying on technology to connect in lieu of face to face interaction got old.

i like my friends.

being with them is delightful and safe.

i've spent the past week or so with...oh, maybe 18 good friends.

hailing from all over tx and the midwest they gathered.

a group of people that really, "like each other so much, we could have fun doing just about anything" as Kevin put it.

mmhm.

today was the day we all scattered back to our homes again.

it was a pretty routine exchange of hugs, "i love you"s and "goodbye"s.

i didn't mind the parting of ways so much at the time, but later, i got in my car to go home and thought, "ugh".

even the most mundane things in life can be fun if you're with the right people when you do them. just getting in a car can be fun with four other people. but by myself, it's just getting in a car. bummer.

i believe that surely saying "goodbye" must produce something good and worth while...

but that doesn't keep me from dreaming of a day when i won't need "goodbye".

i'm probably just dreaming of heaven again...